You’re an engineer:
you understand
concrete, bearings, spans
you manage projects
you think in
time, space,
logistics, physics
you find solutions
jump to action
She doesn’t
isn’t
Somewhere you know that.
When she said,
“I can’t get married in December…”
She meant: “I’m scared
you don’t love me right. I can’t get married in December,
maybe later”
(she hoped).
But you heard,
“Logistically,
I can’t get married in December,
maybe later.”
So you grasp at
later
found a solution
“How about March?”
“No…”
“May?”
“No…”
You think
she’s harder to crack
than the four properties of concrete
but she’s not so hard.
You know what you want:
her finally-home arms
as a bracelet round you chest
her Sunday-brunch smile
her chuckle, her steel, her doubt.
So it’s not so hard.
Whatever she says next…
pause, listen,
be still.
Resist the undertow to solutions
resist jet-ski actions
these violate the truth in sea
drive down your pylons into the sand
anchor yourself
in struggle against not knowing
and the bellow of inadequacy.
Whatever she says…
Listen, be still.
Into the stillness
you may see
a different kind of answer.
It may be modest
like a washer or staple.
But it will be the washer or staple
she asked you for
when she
couldn’t form the words.
That is a fantastic poem. The characters in relationship, so real and vivid and containing two cultures in contrast. One of my favourite poems for a long time. Brilliant!